It's been a long time since my words have graced these pages. Heh, maybe "graced" is not the best word. But indeed it's been a long time since the last update.

I can't say exactly why that is. In fact, I've put pen to paper many times over the last days. I wrote a detailed account of how I felt and what I did over the visit to my family and my Passing Out Parade. Really, I did. But... for some reason, I never posted it up.

I guess for a time, I thought that I could get along without this blog. After all, Basic was over. I'd seen my family. I'm a private now and hell, I have Skype! I can talk to my friends more often now! Right?

Not completely.

I still felt moments of depression. I still don't know the purpose of my being here.

I've been transferred to the Navy, by the way. It's quite a bit better than the Army but it's got its own set of problems. I've accomplished quite a few things, but still... what for? What am I trying so hard for? Best Trainee? For what?

I'm going sailing today. For the first itme. As an OJT. On the Job Trainee. Supposedly they treat us like dogs or maids. We'll see.

I hate the water. Always have.